i'll be home for christmas.

I've tried again and again to put words to this post, but nothing fits quite right. Perhaps it's because these holidays didn't seem to fit quite right themselves -- a merry time was had by all, and yet something felt a little different to me. A little off. Being an adult and going home to your parents' house for the holidays I'm sure is bound to leave some room for discomfort and.......a shifting of sorts. Not in a bad way, not in a good way, just....in a way. A shifting. The natural progression of things.

I think what I've learned this year is to let go of the expectation. You're not going to be plopped in the middle of the movie White Christmas or Elf. It probably won't snow and it might not feel so magical. Things might go wrong. Time will fly by and some things will fall by the wayside. Emotions will come up and you'll have to navigate them. But maybe all this can transform into something good in its own right. Something different, deeper, truer, more genuine. A new type of holiday.

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Christmas morning. Not the same as when you're a kid but my parents like to try and make it so. As long as I'm waking up with these three goofballs, I'll be happy :)

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Christmas Day felt more like Easter as the temps soared through the 50s, maybe even making it to 60. So unseasonable and frankly, disappointing. But, it allowed for lots of time outside.

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This year, I had a whole bunch of time off work and put a whole bunch of pressure on myself as to how I should spend it. But, I went with the flow and made a lot of really great things happen. One of which was a rather spontaneous road trip up to Montreal. I knew I wanted to go somewhere I'd never been before (even if it was close!) and Montreal ended up being the perfect place. I was ready to even go alone if I had to, but at the last minute my sisters and two friends decided to join me. We arrived on New Years Eve, checked into a cute little hotel (a steal using HotelTonight! the beauty of spontaneity!), and spent a quick 24 hours feeling like we were in Europe (even though it was just a five-hour drive).

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And that concludes my very-picture-heavy holiday post. One of my goals of 2015 is to make more time for creativity, and that includes taking photos, editing them -- and then actually doing something with them. And writing some words to go along with them!

I hope you're all having a wonderful new year. Cheers to 2015!